heroes

Saturday!! It's so fast..that almost 2 weeks of holidays have gone by! Argh...4 more weeks before school starts again...sigh. Last semester of school. It's really toooo fast. Like the speed of the train of thoughts racing through my brain now..too many thoughts to be put into words, into my blog. Though I know I probably won't be able to put half of them into the blog heh..either I lose the patience (cuz I become sleepy) or I forget what I intended to put into the blog.

Some of my friends boarded a coach to KL at 1opm last night at Boon Lay Shopping Centre (erm..ulu place..doubt you'll know where it is or what it is if you don't stay in the west haa...) and will only be back on Monday. Specifically, it happens to be 4 male friends I happened to know from around April '04 and I sent all 4 a 'farewell-and-have-fun' message, and 2 of them replied. At that time, I was kinda waiting for band to start and was a little bored. When I saw the 1st sms, I was slightly delighted, because AT LEAST someone bothers to reply me haha. The 2nd sms totally stunned me. Or you could say I was pleasantly surprised and maybe a little ecstatic. I just started smiling to myself at band :) I know it's silly to react that way, but...guess who replied me?!? Lol.

Finally he's becoming normal. I THINK he even waved hi to me (or maybe my sis) at SRC on Thursday. But sad to say, I think it's my turn to be abnormal, cuz I don't know what is normal, or how to be normal anymore. Sigh. I guess the past 4 months have taken its toil on me..too much avoiding and too little talking. So much so that I'm beginning to think maybe avoiding is the best solution and I'm tuned not to try to think of alternatives. Heh but I've been thinking, we can actually be friends all over again. Like he's a new friend I just got to know..it feels like it. Haha. He's one of those friends I think I'd always have a soft spot for. No ulterior motives!!

Anyway, I watched "The Last Samurai" at home today! Finally got to watch it after first listening to the soundtrack half a year ago. It's absolutely...overwhelming. You have to ask my sister how many times I shrieked and gasped..I know it's a show but some parts of it are just too sad, too touching, too gruesome, too cruel, and too violent (not to mention the blood spurting out). Heroism. Honour. Sacrifices. Love. They're so brave and heroic; their love for their country was so strong that they did not fear death. *admiration* I was really at a loss for words when watching the show.

HELLO!! Are you getting bored of reading yet? Haha..told you I'd lose my thoughts.

*Trying hard to recollect my thoughts....*

Suddenly remembered something I was thinking about..hmm...do you think nice guys finish last? Haha..like those SNAGs (Sensitive New Age Guys)? Someone said that to me before (plus 男人不坏，女人不爱) and the two statements seem to be complementary and perhaps logical?

Take my friend for example. He broke up 2 months ago, leaving a 2.5 long relationship in history. The girl initiated the break, saying that she has "no more feelings" for him. He's quite distraught and I'm a little surprised, because I haven't been in constant contact with him (actually he's my sister's friend) so I didn't know he's such a sensitive and emotional guy. While chatting on the phone with him last night, I realised he's one of those rare (and extinct!) guys who (1) don't take girls for granted, (2) dotes on them, (3) think girls should not dress too provocatively for their own sake (even if he enjoys watching them), (4) sentimental (holds on to old memories..probably a little too much), AND (5) bears to part with his tears (i.e. cry). Quite a nice guy I think. Though I think he should be stronger, it is only humane to feel sad after a break-up. In fact, comparing my 2 months with his 2.5 years, I wonder how he feels when I already feel so horrid with a mere 2 months. Lol. Anyway just as a side note, his ex-gf is not worth it, from what he said. Ah..just hope he can get over it soon! Time heals all wounds （时间能够冲淡一切）.... =)

"Love is nothing but part of one's life" - from 《任我遨游》

Nevertheless, it's another busy week coming up. Sigh..doesn't feel like hols at all. Till my next entry...