job switch?

dear all, i hereby announce that i had tendered in my resignation letter and my last day of service will be 16 March 2007.

it's hard to leave and also hard not to leave. :S

senior manager ("SM"): ... ... so how? any chances of taking back your letter?
me: eh... *silly smile*
SM: what's the reason?
me: (actually have a lotta reasons running through my mind, but i only said this...) tired ah...and very busy with work, hard to spare time for my family and boyfriend...
SM: if you're tired, you can always apply for 1 month's unpaid leave like your colleague... anyway our busiest peak period is almost over, i'm sure we (herself and other managers) will be fine with you taking a rest. for your boyfriend, if you don't have time for him, maybe it's because you don't like him enough? if you like him enough, no matter how busy you are, you will spare time for him!
me: *silly smile* ...

i didn't want to narrate the part about the boyfriend, but i don't agree with what she said, at the point when she said it! i mean, it's true that if you don't like your bf enough, you won't try to spare time for him. but it doesn't mean that if you don't have time for him, it means you don't like him enough!!! i'm so against what she said. it reminds me of the quarrels i had. zzz. =X hmph.

it doesn't mean that if i spend more time on work, that means that work is more important than my bf. it's just that to me, it's more a matter of urgency than importance. if the deadline for work is there, i feel that it's my responsibility to complete it to meet the deadline. yes, i may be slower than others and maybe that's why i take more time to finish it, but at least i have enough sense of responsibility to have the mind and will to finish it.

though when i put so much time to do my work and neglect my bf, i do feel bad and apologetic. but it seems like there's nothing much i can do to salvage the situation or resolve the problem. maybe that's part of the reason why i resigned. is it silly of me to do that? cuz i know i'll still go to do audit, at least for another year or so. it's like i'm avoiding the problem here and now, and yet i know that i have to face the problem somehow no matter which audit firm i go.

so, i still disagree with what SM said. it's like when my bf was busy with Chingay or work, it doesn't mean that he does not like me right?? i understand that work is important, though i feel neglected, but i know i should understand. hehe. i will try to make it up to him if i neglect him lor... so she's wrong!!

ok gotta run now...continue with my "job switch" update when i'm free! enjoy your weekend. :)